I skipped blogging yesterday. Oops. I didn't mean for it to happen. Things just got out of hand and went on a lot longer than I thought it would, so I ended up not blogging yesterday. I guess I technically could have posted something at around 1 am, but I decided against it. So, I guess that means that I failed BEDA? I made it a whole 11 days before failing, so that's a good thing right? I mean, why am I even bothering to continue blogging now since I skipped a day, it's over. It can't be called BEDA anymore because there wasn't a blog yesterday and that means there was not something posted everyday in April.
Not exactly.
I feel lately that I have been trying to find any excuse to fail at anything and everything that I do. It's this feeling of worthlessnes that I guess comes with being an unemployed college graduate and it wants to just bleed into everything else that I do. If I mess up something once, well then I guess it is something else that I have failed at, just like not being able to find a job. Perhaps it's silly, but I think I like the idea of not being able to accomplish anything at all. That way, when I do something right, I will even surprise myself by it.
I actually thought about skipping today and tomorrow too and calling it my 'weekend off' (a weekend off from what exactly, I don't know). Instead, I will stick with a short post that had a lot of potential and a title that leads you on to think that there will be something more.
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