Forgetfulness and Quitting

As you can see, I have not blogged for the past three days. Initially, this was not on purpose. I completely forgot about blogging on Friday. I had a topic ready for that day (I was going to gush over Justin Timberlake's new album, because, well, it's fantastic) and I had planned a potential time slot to write it. Then, I got distracted by the news and my cousins being over and it completely got pushed out of mind. I actually had the time to write it a few times, but it was not on my mind at all, until I was about to go to sleep at 2:30 am. I was lying in bed and it popped in my head that I forgot to write up a blog post. Oops.

I had forgotten to write a blog post before though, so it wasn't that big of a deal. Then, the next day I just had absolutely no desire to write anything. It was the same sort of feeling that I had on Thursday, but I decided to just not even try with anything else, especially since I had not posted the day before, so I kept with the trend. I felt very blah this weekend in general. I had zero motivation to do anything And it isn't as if I have a lot of strenuous things to do, but I was just sapped in terms of motivation to do anything that would require any sort of effort whatsoever. 

I find that I have gotten this feeling much more often than I did when I was in school, which is odd because I was an extreme slacker and procrastinator when I was in school. Even when I set myself up a schedule or a to-do list to follow, it does not strike that same sort of feeling to actually do something. And since this feeling keeps popping up, it is not very easy for me to officially declare that I am "quitting" BEDA. 

The main reason that I started BEDA was so I could make myself get into the habit of constantly writing again, even if it is about nothing really or (as seen in the subject matter of many posts) the same thing again and again. I think that I have reached the point where I can write something easily if I need to, but not in the form of a blog post each day. I have an unfinished short story that I want to actually finish. I have ideas for other stories and sketches that I want to write. I have recently had a bit of breakthrough with how to format the writing for a novella that I toyed with a few years back. Basically, this half-assed attempt at BEDA did actually help because I have been writing more often and it got some of my creative juices going. 

With that, I am not going to completely abandon my blog. I will keep writing in it, just not at the frequency of each day but, definitely at a frequency that is more than once or twice a month. I know that I could keep blogging everyday along with working on other writing projects, but I feel that I can come up with much more quality, and certainly much more polished, posts if I do not make blogging an everyday thing. 

I guess, in this case, quitting a self imposed challenge was the right thing to do.