Insanity Takes Many Forms

Alright, well perhaps not true insanity but things that may seem a bit crazy or a bit impossible can take different forms. Whether it is chasing after a dream that people tell you that will never happen or deciding out of the blue to run a marathon, what some consider to be something crazy for one person to do another considers it to be a goal while another sees it as something admirable.

As for me, I am not lofty enough or really even creative enough to come up with something that is truly insane, only a few things that are somewhat insane. It starts with deciding to be indecisive with my future, perhaps that is more stupid than anything else but let's just go with it's just a little insane. Not really insane since it isn't actually an unusual occurrence.

And then my mild insanity moves onto something  bit more short term and it is to read 30 books in 30 days (the list of the books is here: http://www.goodreads.com/review/list/7100553?shelf=30-book-challenge). Honestly I think I went with this to keep me from reaching an extreme level of insanity as I am not sure what to do with myself now. As I usually either throw myself into the internet or into books, I figured I'll focus more on the book part so that at least I get the feeling that I am accomplishing something. Which the more I think about it the more I come to the conclusion that is the real reason I set this goal, however insignificant, for myself. Even if I don't reach the full 30, I am going to keep trying and worst case end up reading perhaps 15 or 20 books. It will still be an accomplishment of something that I may not have done otherwise.

I feel that I am lacking in accomplishments lately. I know that graduating from a university with a Bachelor's Degree is seen as a huge accomplishment, but for some reason I don't feel like it is. Maybe it is because I am stuck right now with some indecisiveness or maybe because I tend to take things for granted. Either way, I feel a pull towards trying to set goals and accomplish things, whether big or small, completely on my own.

So that is what this 30 book challenge is for me. It is an opportunity to lose myself in different worlds, a chance to soak in one of my favorite hobbies, and it is a chance to show myself that I can still finish whatever I set out to achieve.